The Exit

I'm hurting them

I must change myself and I know what to do. The problem is... Will I do that? Here we go again, I have started again. No use if I continue to talk with myself. I feel so idiotic. 

Without an effort, you cannot achieve what you desire... No, that probably does not count. Enough. Sufficiency is the keyword. I want to press "Reset" button and start all over. Because I have insufficient ambition,  courage and desire... Do I want to change? 

I do not want to hurt people. I do not want to accept that I'm bad. I want to be criticized and don't want it at the same time. I don't want to write all these, but then the pain persists. I'm tired of all these. I wish something came and take my life instantly. Don't make me suffer, I'm scared to feel pain, I just want to die. Is it possible? Non?

Bah. Tired. Bored. Don't want to write more. Please bear with it.

Nothing

Long time no see, eh? And again, my mind is filled with nothingness, I'm bored, I'm bored to death.

It's rather hot nowadays... I'm fruitlessly taking a bath, only to start sweating like a hell in a couple of minutes... Though I'm OK with hot, sunny days, I don't like the smell I produce unintendedly.

Hmm, I really want to write about my feelings. The emptiness I own, the solutionless person I've became... but funny, it does not feel that gloomy now...

OK, now, I have so much to do, I think I'll leave this story here. Maybe I'll continue telling this, on a less hot day.

Angel & Demon

Angel and Demon

For peace we pray

Save us from all fears

Oh Lord, save us...

You can feel me in your mind

With every breath you take

Burn the earth with flame of sins

I'll make you feel dismay

Our feelings play with us

But you must keep yourself under control

If you're searching for resolves

Be ready for the tolls

Show us the right way

Day after day

All fears we must forget

Then better world we'll get

If you have the greatest aim

Keep it in your soul

I'll be always by your side

Always in your heart

Our dreams can play with us

Even if we think that we keep control

From all horrors of the world

Salvation is love

Love

The earth is in flame

And you must share the blame

Look inside yourself

We both are there

Day after day

All fears we must forget

Then better world we'll get